- July 8th, 2010
I just read read the question for the day, "What is one thing you can count on your family for?" I don't hate my family, not even my dad. I love them all and I would die for them no matter what they did. I know I can count on them for love and I hate the way I want them to be something they're not. I want them to be more loving and more caring. I just realized I said them. I want US to be more loving and caring. I want us to be able to trust each other and be able to say anything or share any problem that we have. I feel as if we can't do that. Especially the children, I feel as if we can't tell our parents how we feel or what we really think about a situation. In a way I feel as if our religion kinda hinders how much of a family we can be. I feel sorry that if I were gay or if one of my brothers were gay we couldn't be able to tell them. I also dislike that I feel as if I have to wait until I am out of this house to be my real self. I feel like that also hinders who I am and my relationships with others. My mother lost her virginity at a young age and I'm sad to say that we haven't even had the "sex" talk and I'm past that age. Now I rely on the outside world for all of my information. I feel that our, the whole family's communication problems started before the parents. I think it may have started with the grandparents and sent down to each generation. Even though all of this sucks, I refuse to let my future family be this way. My family will be able to talk about anything and I will have enough trust to support them in anything. I will love them with everything I have and even more. That is my prayer and that is my future.